Seldom Ray Of Sunlight

[virgienic]

Youre like the seldom ray of sunlight, on a rather rainy day,
The tiny hint of hope, on an otherwise dull escape.
The sun shines through the gray clouds
And warms the shoulders of an innocent passerby,
Who merely craves solace.
Days on end with no word from you,
Are gray, cloudy…
Then the sound of that saccharine voice both warms me,
and cuts through me like a knife, all at once,
my heart beats slightly faster in excitement.
I should know better, but you’ve grown so impossible to read,
Why do I let this one fragment of hope change everything?
Cant I just embrace the rainy days,
Accept the sting of the harsh rain drops
And maybe, eventually gain back my dignity that you so blatantly tore apart.
But no, somehow, you have every end of my heartstrings
Tied securely to your sinister tongue,
And like the flash of a lightning bolt,
I become a hurricane of emotions,
Then im the shipwrecked boat after the storm.
Tattered and abandoned.
Do you enjoy this game you play?
You need to feel powerful?
To be the mother nature to my emotions,
Yet abuse the privilege with every given chance.
Like a tornado in a hospital,
You are the worst kind of malevolence.
Yet I allow you to be..
And it kills me to know that im capable of loving such evil,
So malicious and careless.
And for that I loathe you,
In such a way that is barely fathomable,
Bc in my heart I know
That no matter what
You’ll always be the seldom ray of sunlight on a rather rainy day.